.Monday, August 14, 2006 ' 6:19 AM Y
my heart's crying for you. but you didnt know. you really dont know anything. i feel like just screaming into your face, that you dont know anything. that you are so insensitive. that you are making me sad. i just want to scream at you, then i dont want to see you, ever again. i ask myself, why do you have to appear in my life? why do i have to meet you, and then fall in love with you, when i know that it is impossible between us. why do i have to get my feelings so engaged? why do i have to get involved in the first place? then i knew the answer was staring right at me. cause you're the only who's able to make me forget him. cause you are the only one who can make me smile. cause i love you.but now, i understand everything. and i think i even know who she is. she didnt even do anything, and you're already there for her. what about me? i've done so much, but im still unable to make you understand. life is always unfair especially when it comes to love. yes, love is unfair. how i wish you can be there to protect me when im in danger. how i wish you can look into my eyes and say you wont leave. how i wish that night will stay forever. how i wish.i know i have to forget you, cause there's no point in hanging onto this. i have to stop talking to you eventually cause i really cant bring myself to give you my blessings, encouraging you to go into the relationship. i have to stop loving you cause it will just end up being nothing. goodbye now santa.
