.Friday, August 03, 2007 ' 5:41 AM Y
hello lovely, you just spoilt my moodwhat more do you want from me? im just screwing everything up, i cant even do anything well. im really fearful, of every single thing. failure, falling short of expectations, hurting others, being hurt. practically everything. this wound has been reopened yet again. why cant we just let it heal by itself? why do you have to make it hurt again? i really dont know if it'll ever heal at this rate we're going. even if it does, it'll leave a big and ugly scar, one that will stay forever. hate me today; hate me tomorrow; hate me for as long as you want to.sometimes looking at the pile of books in front of me, i really feel like tearing them upstaring at the ceiling tears will come for no reason.and thinking of everything that has happened i really feel like giving up the opportunity to stay alive.i hereby declare i love st nicks <333!i dont know where i'll be if not here;
