.Thursday, August 09, 2007 ' 6:39 PM Y
if you really think it's so easy being me, then i dare you to try.
come, im daring you to try.
if you refuse to, please give me a very good reason why
if the reason is that you understand fully,
then i continue asking you
why are you making things so difficult for me?
if the reason is that you dont even want to bother,
then i say,
sorry get lost.
and tell me,
is it wrong to accompany a friend in need
and at the same time try to appease one's parents
by sacrificing some time with other friends.
and i say, SOME time, not all of the time.
im fighting, you know,
fighting all the guilt and temptations.
im really sorry,
and i apologise sincerely
perhaps these three words dont mean anything to you,
but they come from the bottom of my heart.
so do you have to make me feel worse,
by saying those hurting words?
what am i supposed to do?
by taking option A, i'll upset those in B;
by choosing option B, i'll sadden some in A.
then what?
what what what
tell me then,
how do i get out of this conflict?
how do i get approval from both sides?
how do i keep this balanced?
how do i get myself moving on with everything?
weak,
temperamental,
feeble,
silly,
pessimistic,
dumb,
what an asshole.
whatever,
that's just me.
