.Tuesday, October 02, 2007 ' 2:31 AM Y
"Lost, unseen and unheard by others."do you even understand what it takes for me to have to put down my pride and stubborn nature to say one 'sorry',
when im sorry, but i really dont feel i should be responsible for
all the blame.
yes it's partly my fault,
you want me to be more sensitive to your feelings,
yes i know i've hurt you badly this once
you loathe me hurting you
but have you ever been sensitive to my feelings?
when you were looking unhappy, i tried to cheer you up.
when i saw that you're feeling sian diao or left out, i tried to converse.
but what did i get back in the end?
an obviously forced smile (and you didnt even bother to hide it)
or a long face.
i may not be a humorous or interesting friend,
i may not be able to make you smile,
but at least i know i tried.
i dont know whether you saw that,
but i indeed tried, very hard.
what about you?
when i was having a headache, did you care at all?
no i doubt so.
just a 'eh you okay not' when i said that you're unconcerned in that playful manner.
that's just mere lip service isnt it?
now you tell me,
do you seriously think im not hurt when you send that text,
full of spite and sarcasm?
do you seriously think you're being sensitive to my feelings then?
why cant we talk this out nicely,
no more battles for me, please.
friends are meant to give each other support and the strength to push on,
but why is it that this one simple word is draining my energy instead?
have i not been trying hard enough?
maybe, the problem lies with me
i've been thrown in this confusion and there's no one to guide me through
all i see now is just that,
im tired of being a friend.
